I'm still standing better than I ever did...

(hey, it's the only Elton John song I like, gimme a break)

Ok, so...shitloads of water weight gain later...I'm finally on the fast. This shit tastes disgusting, but I'm dealing w/it by not breathing while I drink :p heh I think I may need to go back to the maple syrup afterall, b/c the molasses version is FOUL...ya hear? holla!!

Anyway, the water will melt off...the weight will go back to what it was, and things will be fine. Realized Saturn finally went direct in Virgo the other day, so I think that's gonna help me get back on target. :) (what? oh, leave astrology alone for a day...)

The first few days are always the most difficult. But, after that it should be smooth sailing....

Start date of fast: 05/05/08 (hey! cinco de mayo...whoopee)
Last day of fast: 05/15/08
Transition period: 05/16 - 05/19

Yeah, it's hard to go back to food after not eating for awhile. It basically goes like this - continue w/fasting liquid, add broth; next day - liquid, broth, then juice; day after that - liquid, broth, juice, then soup; day after that (last day of transition) - liquid, broth, juice, soup, fruit. After that, you can pretty much go back to eating "normally"...ya know, but HEALTHIER. Otherwise, you went thru all that for nothing. I leave for NYC on May 23rd. Don't know how things will fare whilst on the road, but it shouldn't be too terrible. :) Anyway, that's all I've got to add right now. Will update again soon...

no worries...

I haven't given up...still around...will be doing a fast for awhile, so there won't be any food log updates for a bit, til I'm off the fast. Anyways, since I don't really have anything to share otherwise - here's a few pics :)

This first one is my baby, Tiger - who was killed on March 5th. I still miss him & tear up a little when I think of him. You can see, he was quite the possessive little shit. ;) haha...And so is his brother, Saru, who is starring in the rest of the pics. Anyway, that's all I've got right now. Kitty pics...at least I didn't LOLZ them, right? RIP Tiger...and god bless Saru :)

wish I could say I was doing better today...

but I can't. I fully intended on getting up early and exercising, since everyone left fairly early. But nooooooo...didn't drag my ass out of bed til 9'ish. :( And did I get dressed to workout? Nope...Why? I don't really know. I mean, I know why I'm depressed, just wish I could push myself to exercise anyway. I KNOW it would make me feel better, at least for a little while. *sigh* So, here I sit, at the computer AGAIN, knoshing on a frickin' mustard sandwich (hey, condiment sandwiches are my comfort food, leave me alone :P) and drinking a bottle of water. At least it's not soda, right? And at least there isn't meat or cheese in the sandwich. (Trying to look on the brighter side of things.) *sigh* Anyway, I'm outties for now...

ugh...

no ruth's chris tonight, got delayed til tmrw. but i haven't gone grocery shopping in weeks, so there isn't much to eat here...so, i did the worst thing possible...whataburger! i'm so sick right now...i want to die...ugh!

update: less than an hr after the above incident, I pretty much vomited the whole thing...not surprising, as this sort of thing has happened before...yes, i know! i'm either dense or hard-headed. *sigh* I'll tell you this, you know how it got really annoying when they started tagging everything w/"extreme" (extreme sports, etc.)...well, my life has gone "extreme" and i'm not liking it. will come back w/more later...ttfn

inquiring minds want to know...

who the hell is visiting my blog from Redwood City, CA? Curious, that's all....

writing...

In an effort to dust off my writing skills, I've decided to write a few articles for this here blog. I'm trying to jot down ideas every day and such. I think 2-3 articles a week would be good for now.

The plan is to write one article based on this little weight loss journey I'm on & another article about food in general. The food article would probably comprise a recipe or two, along w/some pictures or something, and some general info about the nutrients found in said food. I think that would be interesting for some people b/c I know I'm always looking for new recipes & stuff to try. So, actually, this will benefit in two ways, b/c I'll be honing my writing skills AND my photography skills at once! Wee! :)

Anyway, as for the more personal article, I don't know. I think I can help people who are struggling or having a hard time of things. I know I don't always have an easy time w/all this. But, I love to help people and think it would be awesome if something I wrote inspired someone or helped in some way. So, that's the plan...just thought I'd put that out there, that way I'm held accountable. I had the intention to do it, now I've stated it, so now I have to do it!

The kids should be home soon, so I better get ready to go back out & have some fun while the sun's still shining. (Not that it ever really stops shining in Texas *sigh*) ttfn!

yes, we have no bananas...

we have no bananas todaaaaaaaaaaaay!!

(sorry, i like that song)
anyway, i have no bananas...i haven't been drinking my smoothies...yes, i know i could make them w/o a banana, but i like them w/a banana...call me crazy, but i'm bananas for bananas ;) haha

anyway, so i had a blueberry muffin for breakfast....what?? it's not like they're STORE BOUGHT (as if!!) ;)

ok, ok...fiiiiine...i'm crazy...call it a sugar rush ;) i'll bbl w/more, i promise...IDEAS, ppl...i gots 'em

disturbing precedent

I don't know what's wrong w/me...I keep STOPPING :( I don't like stopping...stopping means not moving, not moving means no progression, no progression means no results, no results means my fat ass stays MY FAT ASS! Not good...must change that...will do so now! toodles!

takin' the day off today

yep, no food log, no exercise, no nuttin' :P tune in tomorrow for our regularly scheduled programming ;)

clothes...

so, I know I shouldn't buy much in the way of clothes, but I haven't been buying much lately, and I hate most of the clothes I have...plus, I HATE IT when my jeans are loose. I'm not even exaggerating, I really f'in hate it when the tummy "pooches out" & shit...omg...you've no idea how much that drives me nuts...anyway...

so, I bought two new tops and...brace yourself...a skirt...holy shit, yes, I bought a f'in skirt!! I can't even tell you the last time I bought a skirt, let alone wore one. So, here's the kicker...back in January, I bought a few shirts...all size 22/24. Yesterday, the shirts I got were 18/20!!! And they fit BEAUTIFULLY!!! Now, I'm still a 24 in pants (I think...I've been buying Right Fit jeans and have gone from a 7, to a 6, and now I'm a 5), but the skirt I got? Size 22, baby!!! Holy shit...a 22! Now, I can get away w/a smaller skirt b/c of my waist...It's my damned hips & ass that keep me in 24s. :(

Anyway, slowly but surely, the sizes are going down! I'll try to post some pics tomorrow...maybe...I need to chill out today and do some minor pampering...you know...like actually shaving my legs ;) haha...can't remember the last time I did that either (I'm so hairless, it's not funny, which is why I never shave) :P Seriously, though, my legs are blindingly white...need to shave & use some sort of sunless tanner stuff...hehe...toodles!

weeeeee!!!!!!!

still dancing around...not always in my chair, tho'...some songs are too good & my headphones are long enough ;) hehe....music is beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeauuuuuuuuuuuuutiful!

food log...04.08.2008

ok, i don't even know what to put down for today...i pretty much snacked on a few grapes this morning and that was it...been in a terrible downward spiral for a while and i think i'm finally beginning to stop spinning...*sigh* i forced myself to eat a turkey reuben from jason's (way too much sodium, i know...esp. since i always ask for extra sauerkraut [god help me, but i LOVE the stuff], but it's only 22% of cals from fat...abt 430 cals total)

OMG...my fave song!!!!!!!!!!!! haha...sorry, The Boxer by The Chemical Bros. just came on Pandora...anyway....

so, i had the reuben & a fruit cup (and yes, i ate their totally yummy yogurt concoction that they give you w/the fruit...b/c it's delicious, that's why!!!) and a diet boylan's black cherry soda :P

i know i had POM at some point today...but no random snacking...no crackers, no cheese, no nothing...talk about bad...*sigh* anyway, i feel a bit better...should be much better after some "retail therapy" tomorrow...only thing really bumming me out right now is the fact that i have laundry to fold...i HATE laundry (esp. socks, which are the bane of my existence) >:(

oh yeah, and i've been bopping around in my chair for well over an hr now...god bless Pandora & my "Daft Punk radio" ;) lol

so not about my weight...

i don't know what it is, but when someone professes they are a "nerd" and claims to have taken "advanced placement" courses, etc., i expect more from them...and when you read an article by said person & they write per se as "per say" and write "past" instead of passed...well...colour me judgmental, but that totally negates their previous statements about nerdiness, IMHO :P

i realize many would think i'm not as intelligent as i am due to my disdain of capital letters, my overuse of smilies, and tendency towards run on sentences...do i care? not really, as i don't go around talking about how nerdy i am or whatever...

do you ever find yourself having moments like this? where someone says something completely off and it changes your opinion of them? i don't like doing that, it just seems to happen sometimes...

wants/needs

• need to get the adj. weight dumbells today (either that or get one of those weight pyramid thingies)
• should be getting the turbo jam later on today
• want to get a new sports bra...need more than one w/all this working out i'm doing, eh? ;)
• want to get out of san antonio & go to the coast...missing water lately
• need to cash that damned tax refund ck today!!

*update*

• deposited check, will go buy weights tmrw
• TurboJam arrived!!! yay!! and what's cool is that it came w/weighted gloves, so i don't have to go buy some to kick up my Walk at Home workouts ;) will try out TJ tmrw morning
• will order sportsbra & other asst items tmrw as well
• priced some Disney pkgs for upcoming vacation...will hit up the water in Cocoa Beach prior to arrival in Orlando :P

that is all.... ;)

amazing...

amazing what a little time spent w/your children will do for you ;) i feel so much better now...

some days

i really wish people would lighten the fuck up...i'm no expert, and i'm not perfect...all i know is what works for me...and if sharing that helps others, then great...i don't tell anyone what they should or shouldn't do...i don't understand why i have to put up with people telling ME what i should do all goddamned day...people are crazy...end of story

god help me...

i'm having one of those "someone is WRONG on the internet" moments... *sigh*
must. resist. replying...haha

in other news, i think i'm still recuperating from the illness i had earlier in the week...i'll be glad to start up the bfl thing next week though. :)

*happy dance*

my shoes arrived!!! wooohoooo!!!!! I placed the order yesterday, dude...and they got here TODAY! do you understand? free shipping...and i got them TODAY. crazy...but you gotta love zappos.com

anywho, here are some pics...yes, i know they are crocs, and trust me, i probably hate crocs more than you do...but they're cute! and comfy...and i love them...so, :P~ thbbbpppptttt!!!!!! (be nice, i'm actually showing you my c'ankles & giant calves :( heh)




and yes, i know my feet look incredibly small, but trust me...they are not small...anyways, i'm happy...they're comfy and cute...*dances off to make lunch* ;)

what the hell...

everyone and their mother seems to want to talk to me today...
i haven't been able to get my morning workout in...at all!
i haven't even eaten breakfast & it's now FIVE HOURS since i woke up...
this is NOT good for my weight loss, people! lol
what to do, what to do? do i eat breakfast? postpone the workout?
i think that's what i should do...eating is more important than the exercise right now
goodness, but i HATE making decisions!!! :P

by the by...i took a new pic this morning to compare w/the other...
they say it can take as much as 2-3 months for weight loss to show on a woman's body (depending on amt lost, i say)...
i don't know...it's only 6 lbs lost since the last pic...
but it SEEMS like there's a difference...might post it later just to see what y'all think ;)

exercise & shopping

now, if you know me at all, you know that i seriously dislike shopping...i've been known to shop at the super wally world (wal-mart) at 4am for my groceries simply b/c i hate the whole shopping "experience" (i.e., people...lol) grocery shopping, in fact, ranks right up there w/visiting my peesh doc, so yeah...i'm not overly enthused.

now, when i lived in nj/ny, it was a bit better b/c there were plenty of farmer's markets & bodegas to visit for my stuff...here in tx (where they grow just about everything) farmer's markets are not easy to find or come by...so, i'm stuck going to h-e-b (our main grocery store...there's also sun harvest & whole foods for the gourmet stuff) for everything...

let me describe to you my usual shopping "experience", shall i? this way you'll get an idea of what i go thru:

1. first, there's the people...always an endless stream of people to get into this place...why? i don't fucking know...there's an h-e-b every 3 miles in this town, you'd think people would just stay local
2. get the cart, walk to the far end of the store and start there (logical, no?)...but first have to fight my way through all the lolly-gaggers in the frickin' main aisle to get to that far end *sigh* oh, and this store is gigantic...HUGE...takes at least 1-2 mins just to reach the far end
   
3. get all the heavy stuff first and load up the cart, trying to move as swiftly as possible around gramps who can't decide which crackers to buy, or suzy homemaker who leaves her cart on one side of the aisle, but stands on the other side to peruse the multitudes of laundry detergents available to her, or billy picks-his-nose-a-lot who insists on running in and out of the aisle like this is play-land (how i miss the grocer's in nj that have little play-lands built in where the kiddos can stay while mommy or daddy does the shopping) *double sigh*
4. often i am left standing there, patiently waiting for said "aisle blocker" to move their farking carcass outta my way...do i say anything? not usually...i hate to be a bitch...but when my tolerance level has been breached, i do *cough* & say excuse me while desperately trying to nudge my way past the rude bastard *heavy duty sigh*
5. it's at this point that i usually check my list, realize i forgot something 5 aisles ago & have to backtrack to get it...this is often more arduous than the first time around b/c all the slow people i left behind ARE STILL THERE!!!!! *whew* sorry, got away from me for a second
   
6. produce is always last & here i take my time...i always go shopping w/a list, but things often change depending on what's available, what's fresh, etc. lately they've been having a lot of tropical fruit, so i've been loading up! :) anyway, this is the only area i go slow, but it's worth it and i always pay attention to the "traffic" and try to stay out of other people's way...
7. then it's on to the check out...my cart is usually PACKED w/stuff...i'm very organized and have a "system" (you knew i'd say that, didn't you?)...i have a system for UNPACKING it as well...honestly, i wish they'd let me bag my own groceries...but that seems to be against the law in tx, b/c every time i try, someone comes rushing over to do it for me...weirdos...anyway, i try to get everything on the conveyor as fast as possible...i'm usually sweating at this point from all the (attempts at) speed walking thru the store, plus by the time i'm done, i'm pushing about 300 lbs of groceries around (not exaggerating)...they always ask if i need help taking it out to the car & i always (politely) say no...it used to offend me, 'til i realized they have to do it...
8. take everything out to the car, load up the back (again, i have a system!! lol) and go home
9. get everything inside the house, unpack, put away, blah blah...usually still a little sweat there, too

and there you have it...after i roll up all the bags (saves space & we use them as kitchen trash bags), i'm done...but do you see? do you see all the crap i have to go thru? i HATE shopping...i HATE slow people...i realize that may be me one day, but by god, i will do everything in my power to keep that from happening!!! sheesh...

(events might have been slightly over-dramatized for your amusement ;) hehe)

p.s. now you know why i log this shit as a workout on traineo...all in all, i spent over 2 hrs shopping today...wtf???